Anywho...I hate how life gets good for a few weeks then turns to total ****. There is no in between. Life with the horses is getting better. Life with the family is getting alil better. My brother is totally different now that he is with this girl. She hates pretty much everything about him that makes him, him. I hate her. I really just wanna kill her. School sucks. People suck there...I hate it. Im SOOO sick of their ****. But thank god only 2 more months or so. I see me blowing up tho.
Tomorrow is going to suck. I dont wanna do anything but sit at the cemetry and just cry for hours. I already did it today. I dunno y i just cant let them go. I need to just let go off this past and let them go. But i cant. Everyday i relive the days we had, the day i found out...I remember everything from those days. I JUST WANNA ****ING LET THEM GO. Someone tell me how! PLEASE!
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quote: Originally posted by: "I don't know. It's hard to let go of loved ones. But it's only hard if you make it hard. Just go and send them your peace. Cause I have no idea."
Ya...Thats all im going to say.
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Well i didnt go to school once again today. Now im up to like 19 or 20. Ah well. I couldnt get up for the life of me. Yesterday i had brutal lessons. I rode my moms new horse and he is VERY hard to ride. He just kills my back. And i was in tears cuz of the pain. BUT i wasnt stopping until he did it my way. Which i swear we did about 25 courses. And i ****ing beat him to death. He needs to go away for a while and get all of his spooks out and retrained again cuz i cant do it with my back. I'll just end up killing myself. So i took major pain killers and i slept from 9pm-now. lol. And im still about to fall asleep.
News on Marcus. They did the scan again. First time it came out black (meaning its death, no good, worse, etc) Second and third time it came out gray..(which means its healing) Im so happy! My baby is getting so much better. And he looks better too. And he is almost his sweet self again! YAY! One more month then i can take him out of that damn stall and just walk him around. Its sounds like nothing...But omg it is SOOOO much to me!!!!!!!!
Lastnite i was thinking about giving up riding...Cuz im always in pain, even doing the ground work. But im in pain 24/7. And i love riding. So im not giving up. I cant really work out cuz of the pain...But i really gota push myself and take pain killers. Its the only way.
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Driving today…Parallel parking…different state trooper…MEEP! I HATE driving little cars. And this guy always plays with the damn brake! It ****es me off. I will find out today when I can go for my license. YAHOO! Damn car STILL isn’t in tho!
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Everything happens for a reason....
~3rd in Nation, BIATCH!~
My baby is getting so much better. And he looks better too. And he is almost his sweet self again! YAY! One more month then i can take him out of that damn stall and just walk him around. Its sounds like nothing...But omg it is SOOOO much to me!!!!!!!! 
